Art,  Devotion

The Heart That Once Beat Red

The heart that once beat red was beginning to seep with black, slowly running from the edges into the centre, with each stream trickling down.
It crushed the heart, making it smaller.
The heart began to make loud beats, its sound getting louder with each pound. The pace quickened, unlocking a map inside the brain, once clear paths now filled with deep grey fog. Narrow paths that twist off; too many crossroads.
Heaviness set in.
Fear had trapped the heart, within.


This is what anxiety felt like inside, for me.
It was long road out, scrambling to make it to the abundant life, to freedom, and seeing the joy even in the storms that the enemy throws in our way.
Anxiety is something I’ve kept private and not spoken about before because, at the times anxiety was at its peak, I was afraid of not seeming strong and I felt silly for having the anxious thoughts.
It wasn’t just one point in my life but many, peppered throughout.

We live in a fast moving world that keeps us spinning in consumerism.
Our society has become complicated and confusing. Our messages are being mixed.
Some are being diluted or sugar coated.
The world in which we are bringing our children up in is a tangled web, making parents anxious, and naturally protection kicks in.

Through all of the the navigation, we may be forgetting our roots.

Could we be losing the blueprint of God’s design?
Are identities being stolen out of fear, in order to be the perfect fit?
Organisations, companies, and schools are becoming so desperate to fit the box that they start to conform to the patterns and behaviours of others because they are scared.
Individuals are turning to the over-glamorised lives that appear on social media, afraid they are standing out. Being different.

We don’t have to listen to the enemy who is driving this.

If you are Christian, then that enemy has no power over your life.
Our God is a good God who protects us.
He does not want us to live in a place of fear or anxiety.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9 (NIV)

We all have our fears in life. The enemy will do everything he can to keep you trapped there.
I know how hard it is to climb out, but when we do we’ll be free.
Free to live the abundant life that we have been called to live,
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” John 10:10 (NIV)

If we are living in a state of fear, then we are saying God is not in control and we are allowing other sources to consume us.
Are you living in a place of fear? Has that darkness taken over?
It’s time to bring it out into the light and tell that fear you want no more part in its lies.
Banish it and live in freedom.

Sometimes we have more simple things we are afraid of and we just need to get up and go through it.
My advice for that would be to pray, get up, and do it.
Do it afraid, because I’m sure it’ll be worth the pain to see the result, and then feel the peace for having just done it.

Even if your giants have knocked you down time and time again. Get up and go!

Choose to listen to the voice of truth and not the ones that continually drown you.
When God is in the centre, fear has no place and no right to consume you!

21 Days of Verses

I’d like to set you a challenge to read a bible verse everyday on fear and anxiety for the next 21 days.
May it help you have positive thoughts and may it dispel your fears.
Day 1: Psalm 27:1
Day 2: Joshua 1:9
Day 3: Proverbs 12:25
Day 4: Isaiah 41:10
Day 5: Psalm 94:19.
Day 6: Mark 6:50
Day 7: Psalm 118:6-7
Day 8: Proverbs 29:25
Day 9: Deuteronomy 3:22
Day 10: Revelation 1:17-18
Day 11: Mark 5:36
Day 12: Matthew 6:34
Day 13: Zephaniah 3:17
Day 14: 1 John 4:18
Day 15: Luke 12:22-26
Day 16: Romans 8:38-39
Day 17: Isaiah 35:1
Day 18: Psalm 91:1-16
Day 19: 2 Timothy 1:7
Day 20: Deuteronomy 31:6
Day 21: Philippians 4:6-7

There are so many more verses in the bible that God has placed to remind us that fear has no place in our lives and is not His plan for His people.
I encourage you today to pull out your Bible and seek out verses on fear, being afraid, and anxiety.
Then highlight the verses, circle them, and soak them in.

Worship Music

As you spend time in God’s word I encourage you to listen to this song. It’s called the voice of truth by Casting crowns.
Their music has gotten me through some of my times of anxiety:

The voice of truth says do NOT be afraid.

One Comment

  • Julia Pivall

    A beautifully descriptive, thought provoking and poignant testimony of how fear and anxiety can trap us and bind us to that which we fear most. God is able to strengthen us and see us through the difficulties in order for us to grow in him.
    Thank you Rebecca, a beautiful piece to re-read as a reminder to stay close to our roots xx

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